I know....and perhaps its okay because nobody knows who i am- but i know i bare myself to the world here....Yes i was pregnant...I miscarried...End of story-or is it the end? Did some god preordain my future? Perhaps...Perhaps not.. the question is- does it matter, i'll be sixteen soon...The baby would have been due in february...I wanted it...I would've kept it though it could have lost me my future. But life goes on, you learn to sweep things under the rug and forget..Perhaps forgetting is best. Humans do it well. I'm still with the would be father and he promises me one when we're married. I get the feeling this wont happen.. but thats me. always the pessimist